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Trip to the gyno.. even -more- awkward than usual

April 15, 2009

I hate my yearly gyno appointment. I mean..let’s face it, no matter what it’s always awkward and uncomfy. I can’t keep getting my seasonale prescrip without my yearly pap though so I deal. Anyways, this morning was my yearly appointment and somehow it managed to be even more awkward than usual!

So I’m stripped nude in a little paper gown and sitting on the exam table waiting for my doctor come in and I hear the beeping of a large truck backing up. Ok..there’s window there, parking lot underneath. It must be a delivery truck, garbage truck…right? No big deal. WRONG. It’s three grubby looking dudes on a lift truck and parking right below my exam window!!! They are setting up to go up on the lift right outside my exam room and the blinds aren’t closed..and I don’t see any way of closing them!  There was no way I was going to stay on that exam table with my booty hanging out of the back of my gown so I hopped down and sat on my pile of clothes on another chair in the room to wait for my doctor. When she came in I explained and she had no idea what they were doing, apoligized and closed the blinds…Hopped back on the table n the lift goes up n he guys are standing right outside my window now! Thankfully she basically said screw this and said she was moving me to another room with NO windows cause it was uncomfy and weird.

I don’t know if a gyno visit will ever be  so very awkward.. I really, really..hope not. theend.

Memories and the sense of smell..

February 20, 2009

Isn’t it funny how you can be in the most random place, smell something familiar and have it trigger a flashback of childhood and times long gone? Or how a smell will immediately think of one thing, good or bad..just because of how you were brought up?

I can’t help but think about how special it is, how our brains work..to lock in these smells to memory to trigger things special (or not so special..) to you. Why am I on this topic? I don’t know really..I have lit a lilac candle in our den the past few days and each night I blow it out as to not burn the house down while we sleep. I’ll leave to do a few of my night time to do’s and come back into the den to smell the scent of a candle blown out and can’t help but immediately think of childhood and blowing out the candles on my birthday cake. Each year around thanksgiving I’d have a birthday party where all my friends from school would come celebrate with me, usually at Major Magic’s, Chuckie Cheese or the local bowling alley. Each party my parents let me pick out a double layer half sheet cake with buttercream frosting (usually chocolate cake with strawberry filling!). It was always decorated with little scenes and figurines of what I liked at the time..Winnie the Pooh, Barbie..you know what I mean :) I was always so excited blowing out those candles on my special cake..and each time I smell the smell of a candle gone out I can’t help but feel a little warm and tingly inside, no matter what my mood is at the time.

This has happened before too with smells that just randomly come out of nowhere at remind me of someone I love who has passed on. I remember in 02 or 03 I was in Quality Market food shopping on main Street in Williamsville and happened upon a spot in the store that succinctly smelled like my Aunt Lynne had just been standing there. She passed away when I was 13..I was locked in that spot in the middle of the freezer section just taking it in for a moment, while it was there..remembering how when I smelt that specific smell in the past she was there with me. This has happened on and off again over the years..Whenever I smell someone smoking a pipe I’m immediately taken back to sitting with my Great Grandpa Charlie who always sat at the kitchen table with a pipe, smoking and telling us stories of his childhood in Germany. Another time more recently (probably about 3 years ago) I went into Atlanta Mills Bread Company and immediately thought of my grandpa Joe who died in 2004. He was in the coffee business, supplying commercial coffee makers and coffee to local businesses and his house always had this specific coffee aroma whenever we visited. Well that smell seems to be locked in the doorway of Atlanta Mills..at least whenever I visited there in Buffalo.

I wish there was a way of bottling up these scents. When you’re having a hard day it’d be nice to sit down and reminisce about the people I loved so very much and feel like they are in the room with me…

I wonder what other smells will become locked into my memories as I continue on in life..I can’t wait to find out :)

So how about you? Are there certain smells that make you warm and tingly? Smells that remind you of a loved one? Don’t be shy..comment away! I’d love to hear.. :)

Joaquin Phoenix is one seriously weird guy…

February 14, 2009

So, Joaquin Pheonix was on Letterman this week (or was he?)…and it was seriously just one really weird and awkward experience. I’m not sure why he even agreed to be on the show because he clearly wasn’y interested in being there. It was at least entertaining, maybe more enteraining than some of the normal guests with too huge egos. He just sat there and looked around sort of occasionally answering with one word answers..and occasionally getting pissed off because people were laughing

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My favorite parts were probably when Letterman asks how his unibomber friends are..and when Paul Shaffer bursts out laughing (which -really- pisses off Joaquin). He HAS to be on -something-.

BTW – Did you know Joaquin is trying to make it in the music industry now? As a rapper…Nope, no joke. Weird, weird guy.

Wbs.net and Glenshadow’s/Nia’s Tavern

February 4, 2009

I was browsing around some old old bookmarks the other day and ran across the booksmarks I had for some wbs.net roleplaying chatrooms I used to frequent VERY often back in 97, 98 and 99. I was a daily visitor of Glenshadow’s tavern which later became Nia’s Tavern when it changed hands.

Basically it was a gathering of dorks like me who enjoyed text-based role playing that was based in a tavern and was basically open ended. Kind of a never ending story you would create with each of your characters which would end up intertwining with others characters as you role played along with them. (link to wikipedia write up!)

I had a whole slew of characters but some of my Mains were “Pearled Maiden” or Destiny who always seemed to be in a relationship with “Damien Garrde”..She was just your regular human type..Then there was “Dawn Barron”, a vampire..I had probably about another 15 characters but I won’t bore you with the details.

Did you play in the wbs.net roleplaying chatrooms at all? If so please leave a comment! I’ve heard some people have been attempting a recreation of the old wbs rooms but I’m unsure if they’ll follow through…and if they do if all the old friends would return (probably not :( ) I haven’t played much since they were bought out and the rooms disappeared..I joined im-chat and played there a bit back in the early 2000’s but honestly had completely forgotten about it until recently. They don’t have tavern style rooms there either.. :(  I miss my roleplaying buddies and sitting down for a good night of rpg’ing! Oh, I know it is so dorky…I know! I loved it though..*sniffle*

Character pic flash back!

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You…are selling ice cream!

January 30, 2009

So I was watching American Idol last night with Ryan and I fell in love with Joel Contreras on American Idol from San Juan Puerto Rico auditions. OK..not really, but I thought he was hilarious. I think someone should give him his own show where he goes around the streets singing and “screamo”ing at people about what they are doing. Like Tom Green when he had balls and bothered people in public for a reaction. Joel is on the streets with a guitar singing and screaming at a guy selling ice cream and I couldn’t help but squeal with giggles. Give him his own show!

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*giggles*I wish I had the balls to do that kind of crap in public! Hell, I’m too self conscious to even make videos of myself for online…oi!

TGIF! Almost time for my jog..then I have to straighten up for company tomorrow. 😀

Valentine's day and my lingerie addiction

January 27, 2009

I can’t believe it’s almost Valentine’s Day! It’s a little over 2 weeks away…wow. Time is flying by so quickly!

Now as you know I’m an absolute lingerie addict..I love the pretty little slips and chemises, corsets..baby dolls and pretty bras. Well, as always, Frederick’s has released some pretty under things in the spirit of Valentine’s Day and I’m in love! There is a pretty red chemise with little pink and red hearts, a pink halter chemise and a gorgeous white bra with red and black heart details…So cute! I miss buying new under things! Once the wedding is over and paid for I’ll be so excited to go to Fredericks or Victoria’s Secret and get some new pretty things..Just as long as I don’t get too relaxed after the wedding and balloon in size from eating! lol Seriously..how cute are these?

fredericks red valentines day chemise valentines day white pushup bra with hearts fredericks pink lace silk chemise

Ugh..so cute *dies*

On another note, I made some homemade baked mac and cheese last night. It turned out pretty good just a little bland since I was trying to be good with my diet and used 2% shredded cheddar cheese. I’ll have to try it over the weekend on one of my splurge nights with some additional non-diet cheeses like sharp cheddar and monterey jack. Yum! Tonight I’m going to make some kind of baked chicken with some brown rice or smashed golden potatoes. I found a couple recipes at SparkPeople and haven’t decided if I want to make the Garlic Brown Sugar Chicken or the Foil Pack Chicken… guess I’ll see what I’m feeling at dinner time!

*dances off*

Tired of "Feebay"..but what else is there?

January 26, 2009

So eBay has been implementing even more pain in the butt rules to their already dumb rules and policies..When will it stop?

They already made it so buyers can leave feedback for sellers but sellers can’t leave feedback for buyers unless it’s good feedback. This is horrible for sellers (like me) because I have run across a lot of deadbeat bidders/buyers and people trying to scam you cause they think they might get away with it. This new no feedback for buyers rule basically allows skeezy buyers to threaten negative feedback if you do what they ask you to do (like replace an item they broke, or else!).

Now they have introduced a new rule where the only payment accepted is Paypal (which the also own, surprise surprise!). This is going to make a lot of people mad because there are buyers who either don’t have a credit card or just don’t trust putting their financial info online (totally understandable!). These buyers can no longer purchase things on ebay with this new Paypal only rule.

These things on top of the ridiculous fees it costs to list an item, not to mention if the item sells the additional crazy final value fees and paypal fees..You can hardly make any kind of a profit anymore if you are a small seller. It really is a shame..I used to love ebay but I grow more and more discourage with how they run things every month. It boggles my mind to think some people are sitting around a big table in some corporate office coming up with these ridiculous new rules thinking they are going to benefit their company. It’s just making the sellers leave! Where are their heads?

Anyways..can anyone recommend some other options? I know of Blujay.com, Etsy.com and Silk Fair..Any other good ones I should check out? I have a BluJay store and have used etsy but obviously there is nothing like the reach ebay has. I wish Google would come up with their own auctions with lower fees and less ridiculous rules. I bet they’d give Ebay some good competition!

edit: I know..why am I writing this at 1am? Why am I up?

Soo…when -do- cats calm down..? Even a little?

January 22, 2009

So we got a Turkish Van kitten back in April..He’s always been absurd, but I guess I assumed it was because he was a kitten. For the most part he doesn’t sleep..he just sits and waits. He sits and waits for the perfect time to strike. Strike the dog, the ferret..the rabbit. Even strike Ryan and I! I didn’t grow up with cats so I can’t say I’m a cat person. The whole cat experience is pretty new to me. Ryan grew up with cats however, and he says he hasn’t dealt with a cat more insane than Totoro. There’s just something wrong with this cat.

For one, he is strangely obsessed with hooks in the ceiling that are for plants. He gets visibly upset when he notices them when he wanders the house, stops in his tracks, yowls loudly and proceeds to flip out. Picture a cat doing a jump a couple feet into the air, seizuring while yowling loudly and then running off upstairs. Seriously..wtf?

Second, he’s constantly ready to attack anything alive in the house at any moment. Go in the bathroom, pee, wash hands..open up the door to leave..doo do doo..CAT FLYING WITH ARMS OUTSTRETCHED TO POUNCE YOU TO DEATH. My maltese Zoe regularly gets her ass pounced on like Discovery Channel’s lioness hunting the wildebeest. He flies out of nowhere and lands on her little white ass, holding on while she yelps from the surprise and looks at me sadly. Poor baby girl.

Third, he scratches..HARD. The cats I grew up with would scratch so it would make a pink line on the skin..no big deal right? Well he claws you like a brat and claws you deep. You can feel his little razor sharp hooked claw pulling the flesh of your hand or finger and you have o put pressure on it for awhile till the bleeding subsides. Little pootard!

Fourth, he tries to purposely eat his own fur. I brush him and since he’s a longer haired cat he’ll have a pile of fur waiting to be thrown out from the furminator. What does he do? He tries to outsmart me, get to the pile and scoop the fur into his mouth. Chew chew chew. Wtf again? Why doesn’t he just sit and gnaw on his furry back if he loves the taste if his furs so much?

Fifth..he announces when he needs to poop. Ry has a joke that he must get startled by his ass hurting from needing to poop so he howls and yowls loudly before sauntering off to his box to drop a huge, stinky load.

So those are just five reasons my cat is insane and ridiculous. When we got a cat I thought we’d have a chill cat who’d have his hyper moments and play but that he’d also just chill and be cute. My cat doesn’t chill. He just waits while he ponders his next strike. One year old is still rather young though..so I pray it’s still the kitten in him. I don’t like worrying my cat’s going to attack me when I come around the corner. Furry little gargoyle!

Not enough sleep..damn you EQ2! :P

January 12, 2009

So it’s almost 7:30pm and I’m totally falling asleep as I wait for Ryan to get out of the bath so we can have dinner. I shouldn’t be so tired before 8 o’clock..but I stayed up too late last night playing EQ2 and then got up way to early when Ry left for work. Sure, I work from home..I should have napped! Nope. I spent all day keeping up with the day to day housework, jogging for an hour and then working on my multitude of blogs. I am going to sleep sooo well tonight. I’m surprised I managed to jog an hour and not kill myself being as tired as I am!

I have been enjoying playing EQ2 lately since recently restarting my subscription (as can be seen with my lack of sleep, lol). My main is a level 53 (almost 54) conjuror with a sucky pet who can’t hold aggro for the life of me. I named my pet Lamesack to illustrate its complete pointlessness. Ryan and I group up (he has a fury at the same level), so the pets crappiness isn’t too much of a problem unless we are taking on a group of ^^^ heroics. I have to finish questing in the Obelisk of Lost Souls tonight to clear some space in my quest log..if I can keep my eyes open long enough. Eep!

Ravioli tonight with smart balance butter..yum yum.

Zoe the maltese vs. Pat the neighbor

January 6, 2009

zoe maltese dog on cat perch

My dog Zoe is only 3.8-4 pounds..but she thinks she’s a big girl. She’s a full grown 2 year old maltese who doesn’t realize she’s almost too tiny to even BE a dog by many people’s standards. I personally find that silly..She does everything any other dog does, she just requires less effort and exercise. (She fetches a Nerf football that’s almost the same size as she is for gosh sakes! lol)

We bought a cat perch in April when Totoro (Turkish Van cat) was brought into the family and Zoe took a liking (LOVING) to it. She spent every afternoon basking in the sun on the window perch, sleeping and watching the neighbors. We ended up having to buy an identical second perch for the window nearby so both Zoe and the cat could bask and relax. They are installed on the front big windows of our house so they can watch the day to day “action”.

As she relaxes and peers outside everyday we’ve learned she has a completely unfounded hate for one neighbor who lives across the street. We call him Pat because he introduced himself to us over a snow blower once and that’s what we thought he said..but now we think we misheard him. We have called him Pat for so long though that he’s going to remain “Pat”. Anyways, Zoe hates Pat. Loathes Pat. She even recognizes his red pick up truck and can’t stand it when he drives by. She can’t even stand it when she sees his garage is open and he is nowhere to be seen. (She KNOWS he must be nearby.) She growls and scream barks and stands on the perch with her front paws scratching at the window in anger. Another person can walk by and they may get a small muffled “uff”..but not Pat. Complete disdain for that man.

Poor guy. What makes a tiny dog hate a random male neighbor so very much? I don’t think I’ll ever know.